another tale told

今夜は、会社の友達に前の恋人のことについて聞いた。友達が何年前にギマラスと言う島に行ったら、恋人を見つけたと言っていた。友達は、恋人が外国人と一緒に遊そんでいたって。その外国人は、東洋人だったけど、友達が、韓国人か日本人かどうか分からなかった。その後で、友達と恋人と外国人がボートにした。


そのことについて聞いた後には、気分が悪くなちゃったけど、自分に『大丈夫』と言っていた。だけど、その言葉は、気分をなだめる為にたりないと思っているよ。新しい恋人を捜すことも、たりないよね。でもね、全然泣かない！！


もう一度会いたくないことはないんだけど、恋人の全ての嘘とだましのことの為に、公正が要らなきゃいけないと思っているよ。今恋人が何をしていることを構わないんだけど、気分が悪くなったのは仕方がない。それで、怒っているよ。本当に恋人を殺したいよ！！ゆっくり殺したい！！ねえぇ。 。実は、あまり怒っていない。『怒っている』ってのは、冗談だけだった。『殺したい』ってのけど。 。それも、冗談だけかなー。 。多分俺は、気違いになったよね。


とにかく、日本語で、感情を言い表すのは、びっくりしちゃった。 多分ね、いつか、もうすぐ、だれかが俺が見つけられると思っている。多分、あのだれかはあなたでしょう。 。 本当に気違いになったね。 。

have a little faith in me

Have A Little Faith In Me

mandy moore

and i just love this song . .

a video soon. .

新しく習った言葉のビデオを造りたい。でもカメラがなくて、日本語で話すことは思うほど、易しくないよ。

36 stupid friendster questions

1 . When was the last time you saw the 6th person on your featured friends?

> who are they?

2. What is bothering you right now?

> credit card debts

3. Will you kiss the last person you kissed again?

> in a hundred years, perhaps

4. What is in your wallet right now?

> a condom i could have used last saturday, but i don't have a wallet [making sense?]

5. Wallpaper on your computer's desktop?

> dont have a pc now

6. wallpaper on your cell phone?

> i have a low tech phone [shit]

7. Where was your primary picture taken?

> at the grand dame hotel with aub and someone who miserably died [but it's not sad, trust me]

8. Do you like messages or comments better?

> comments make friendster more friendster-like; messages, yahoo-like

9. What is the last thing you ate today?

> curry that tasted like rubber or something

10. What will you do this weekend?

> hopefully get laid after my japanese class

11. Who was the last person to send you a text message?

> mike, about how he missed his chance to get his ass to china

12. If you could have one person with you right now who would it be?

> nobody can know

13. Listening to?

> bad drive by boa and do you remember by phil collins

14. Have you ever kissed anyone named Phillip?

> hahaha. . mel has and she is bitter about it hahaha

15. ARE YOU Eating now?

> want to [even at this late hour]

16. Have you hit someone today?

> annie -- on the back

17. Do you believe in soul mates?

> maybe

18. What do you wear to bed?

> clothes made of fabric, not of asbestos or straw

19. Are you excited for school?

> school of fish? hehe im excited about my japanese class and getting laid after

20. What is your dream car?

> not in the market yet

21. What did you do last weekend?

> bore myself to death. . ah, i got laid after my japanese class

22. What have you learned recently?

> that credit cards are bull and the japanese word for swell and deliver [they're hareru 腫れる and todokeru 届ける, respectively]

23. What are you going to do after this?

> sleep, and/or something else

24. What was the last text message you sent?

> teh grab [go figure out what it is]

25. Have you ever had a crush on your sisters/brothers friend?

> nope, but i slept with them. . [bet i gotcha there for a sec] haha sucker!!
my answer to the question though is NO

26. How good is your eyesight?

> i have special retinal nerves for spotting cute human beings

27. What was the last thing you drank?

> water, 水, 물, tubig

28. Whose house did you go to last?

> my own and aub's

29. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?

> took my father there

30. Do you love someone right now?

> love can be defined in a general scale

31. Name three drinks you drank today?

> pineapple juice for breakfast, apple juice for lunch, water after dinner

32. what are you excited about?

> going to my japanese tutor's house and study japanese and get laid

wait..
[i think there is a connection between learning japanese and getting laid, have you noticed?]

33. What is your dream phone?

> ang damo load

34. Ever broken a promise?

> every single solitary time

35. Last vacation? Where?

> big one? in bacolod with aub mike and au au

36. Last time you prayed?
> when i stopped believing . . ah, when we went island hopping around boracay island

何も言わない

wala lang ko may mahambal. . damo tani galing wala ko kabalo paano ibatutyag isa-isa.

何も言わない。 。 たくさんがあるんだけど、どうひとつずつ言い表されるのが分かない。 。

aga pa. .

aga pa ko nakakita sang indi dapat.

siguro wala pa natapos.

o tapos na, wala lang ko "fallback".

sila may ara. ako wala. . pa.

hmm. .

突然に、父にさみしい。 。父は生きれば、今ジンスーのホテルに住んでいるのに、こんなにさみしくならなかった。 。 帰りたいんだ。 。 。

i miss my father all of a sudden. . if he were still around, i wouldn't be this lonely though i am staying here at the hotel. . i feel like going back home. .